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Forget To Grieve

I still lie on my side of the bed. 
The dog still curls 
in the place she curled 
when she curled behind your legs. 

Her ears stand up at every sound and 
my heart leaps to meet you. 

I am aching for the day 
I forget to grieve. 

The column of moonlight 
from the window over the bed 
illuminates every speck of dust; 
every memory overhead. 

Every moment I think of you 
is a moment I won’t sleep. 

I am aching for the day 
I forget to grieve. 

I still lie on my side of the bed. 
The dog still curls 
in the place she curled 
when she curled behind your legs. 

You were the reason I looked ahead. 
Now the future haunts my dreams. 

I am aching for the day 
I forget to grieve.

About the poem:

I just released a new single, “Forget To Grieve,” via my Cindervoice musical persona.

The poem imagines a nightmare scenario of personal loss — one that, thankfully, I’ve not experienced.

Still, the poem intimidated me, so intimate are its small details. Part of me wanted to shelve the song.

But those small details held me to account. Especially these:

The dog still curls
in the place she curled
when she curled behind your legs.

When a lyric like that graces your pen, you must be stronger than your fear. You must follow where the words lead and hit “record.”

I’m glad I did.